Thru My Eyes

How now brown cow?

2005-09-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

2day is the 1st of September,27 days till I turn 35.Last year I was a husband &this year Im a father.Happy?u bet.Though 2day Im a tad confuse abt marriage.
Does forgive&forget is not allowed in marriage?then how would marriage survive?I admit at times we do stupid things without thinking but does that warrant an all out balistic attack?Dreadging up past faults..faults that was suppose 2 be forgiven&forgotten..Calling the family 2 say that the person is bad husband&further embarrassing the person.How does 1 get by after that?
Well,I did something I have NEVER done before..going 2 the mosque&confide in the Imam.Yeah..told him everything..my faults,my past.His advise?Well..follow back 2 the path of God.Trust&Faith.Trust that if u r right&standby it&Faith that God will in his own way make things right.Its time..I b ME.If u going 2 lose everything then best b ready 4 it.I can't leave my life as others 1 me 2.

At long last

2005-08-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Helo again...

now it has been a while so where do i begin?it coming
to the end of the month now(August) and i have just
joined Paradise Island Vacation Sdn Bhd as the COO. I
hope to prosper this time...
Kierra is getting bigger and now doesnt seem to want
to sleep but rather play..she is only 2 months
old.... imagine..

Anyways..Izzany had a sucessful operation and he is
well now..(although the big scar is kind of scary..)
he just arrived back in Kedah while i am still in
langkawi preparing for the Merdeka event. ahhhhh...

what a world we live in...watch out for more input
from now on...

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When Winter Comes

2005-08-03T08:50:00.000+08:00

Today, i am flying to KL to see my brother. He is going for an operation
this friday, Lung cancer. I have lost many of those close to me and the
feeling of lost and sadness always linger around me..Kierra keeps me sane
and Nissa keeps me going.

I have somehow been suspended from work,due to having too many ideas?i
dont know but that is what i see.it is weird that even if your family is
filth rich and you have an money left by your grand-dad,you are still
bothered about future and finance.Why?because all the money or the family
ties are left just on paper,yes they care..yes its coming but wait..that
is what that makes me wonder...why wait?why allow this stress to bother me
to the max?Being the eldest is never easy but being the eldest and having
to survive is even harder....guess not really making sense here..

I will be leaving Langkawi today and i pray that all will work well,might
move back to KL..if only..if only what is due..comes to me....they say
they care..they promised my dad to look after us...and they did look after
us but just enough on emergency but not to give us a glimmer of hope of
survival..i need to find my place in this world..for the sake of my wife
and my daughter...my god grant me my wish..and show me the path home...

In Trust..

2005-07-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

When 2 ppl realize tht they cannot leave without each other..Marriage comes into play.That's how it happen 2 me,When 1st met my wife..it was only 4 1 nite then I rtn 2 KL..we kept contact thru calls&sms(thank god 4 sms)After almost 3 months,we met again&I knew then as now,that this is the woman 4 me.

Her most rewarding traint is our level of trust.U must understand tht I work in KL while she is in Ipoh..those days..I had 2 entertain a lot..but it was ok..we both agreed tht Freedom&Trust is an important virtue.

Therefore..In all one do-..Trust is vital.M on the way back frm a 1 nite trip frm KL&I miss my wife&child...her home-cooking...Only 70mins 2 LGK...

Journey home

2005-07-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

It started as a plan..A bus ride home on Saturday..arrived in Ipoh at midnight.So Z was late in picking us up 2day..1&1/2 hours late..drove like a madmen but arrived late&missed the boat so hve 2 spend the nite in K.Perlis..kierra is asking 4 her swing so we made a make shft swing in the toilet..my daughter 1st experience in a hotel is a swing in the toilet..jezz..the best part is MD thinks Im in kuah..tmr..arrive in LGK then straight 2 work...c ya tmr

half day?

2005-07-16T16:43:00.000+08:00

Today was half day..but more importantly is that
Kierra and Nissa is coming back home..a tad worry because
the house is still in a mess and i had to do a lot of stuff to
raise the cash..still 2 months behind the car payment but no worries
should be ok next week...

anyway..i am on the 530 boat.

2005-07-16T02:46:00.000+08:00

Kierra in snow cap

2005-07-16T02:43:00.000+08:00

Kierra and me.....

It Starts

2005-07-16T02:15:00.000+08:00

Greetings world...Atfer years of dabbling in the IT world...it is almost funny when i look at the time it took for me to set-up my own blog...well tmr is the 16 of July..and I have been a father for exactly 1 month....my wife and daughter is coming back on Sunday.,..have to work harder now...argghhh.....penat siul...well my daughter's name is Sharifah Zakierra Shahabudin.